The hospital like smell, daily wheelchair walks, strawberry ice cream on Fridays, sunny ninety degree weather, apple juice and crackers for my NST tests, daily journal entries, reading inspiring scriptures, crying myself to sleep, struggling to shower myself with an IV, wishing my mom was there, stroking my tummy while I cried not being ready for Boston to be born, ordering breakfast on the phone from the cafetiera, being woken up at 3am to check my blood pressure, watching Friends in the morning on our Amazon Firestick, missing Sean when he would have to go back home 2 hours away for school some days, and crying every time I saw a mom in the halls being wheeled back to their room with their newborn or walking out those doors to go home with their precious little one. It was a very hard time in my life and I will never forget those 21 days in my life of the unknown and having to put my complete trust in God with my life and my son's life. That next day is one that I will never forget. The moment, that second I became a mom I felt something, something different. Even with the unknown, the fatigue, the unanswered questions, I knew that I was a mom know and I had to be strong. Boston came out screaming and has been a little miracle since.
I cannot believe he is one year old day and it has been an mixed emotions kind of day. I am overwhelmed with gratitude and happiness seeing how far we have come in the past year and how much Boston has grown. He such a happy boy and is a healthy whopping 17 pounds and 26 inches tall. He wears 3-6 month clothes and size 3 diapers. I still try to cuddle and hold him but he is always wanting to move around. He can stand for a few seconds on his own but knows that crawling is faster so he refuses to walk even when we hold his hands to practice. I'm okay with that because it will prolong my sanity and he will still be a "baby" to me ;) I never knew I could love a person as much as I love Boston. He is my motivation when the nights get long and I feel overwhelmed with running a business, cleaning the house, and trying to have dinner on the table every night. He will always be my little miracle baby who could find in my sports bra and was more wires than baby at the beginning. I will always be grateful to God every time (well most times because he is a stinker ;) I look at him. Happy Birthday Boston!! I love you so much :) More than you will ever know. I have an AMAZING photography friend here in Logan who took some pictures of us to celebrate Boston turning 1. She also took some head shots of my for my business and I LOVED how they turned out!! Hiliary was so patient and loving toward Boston and made me feel beautiful and confident!! I would recommend her a thousand times! Go check out more of her work here!
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Hiliary Stewart
2/18/2017 09:11:00 pm
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOSTON!!! Jess! You are seriously the strongest mama! You made me feel so many emotions while reading this blog post! I'm so happy you and Boston are both happy and strong today!
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